I just got back from an awesome lift at Barbell Brigade and had time on the drive up and back to think about some things. On the way their in the cluster fuck that is LA traffic, oh and it was raining so everyone naturally forgot how to operate a vehicle, I got to thinking about life and lifting. The following will be a candid look into what I am thinking and a view of myself that I do not share too often.
On the drive up and back I realized that I look forward to lifting and getting stronger more than almost everything in my life. It is something that no matter what I make sure I make time for it. Now this isn’t to say that I don’t look forward to other things in my life, I look forward to spending as much time as possible with my girlfriend( this is easy, we live together) and going out and exploring new things. Lifting and the pursuit of strength though is something so special to me.
“So…. what’s the point?”, you might ask. I have had so much time to sit and think post surgery and I realized that I am falling into the trap that so many others fall in. Waking up every morning and going to a job I hate only to look forward to it being over and either going home to be with my girlfriend or heading to the gym on the 4 glorious days a week that I lift. I am, as the title states, lost in the sauce. I have no idea what I want to do with my life. I get around people like Bart and Geo and I strive to be like them. I want to love what I do. I want what I love to do to take up the majority of my time.
Now I know that even the most successful and happy people aren’t without hardship and endless hours of hard work. I really just don’t have the slightest clue as to where to put my energy and passion to make it all work. Basically how to be able to afford the life I always envision while putting everything I have into the things I love. I would say lifting and this blog are something that are very beneficial to put my energy towards and I enjoy them immensely, but I am no world class lifter pulling in promotional contracts( a very small percentage are), I also don’t have the writing prowess to command anyone pay me for it.
I have written in the past to pick something that you feel will make you better TODAY, and to go do it. I tend to try to follow my own advice as much as possible and am very happy that I went to Barbell Brigade today. But I can’t help but feel that I am getting sucked in to an endless loop of mediocrity. I hate nothing more than that.
If you feel like this as well or know someone who does please like and share this with them or if you have insight and have gotten out of the place where I am, please comment. Also you may think i’m just a jackass and feel like telling the world, share this and let everyone know!